Geez, I don't even know what the date is.

The band stopped playing, I can hear myself think a little. That's nice.
We saw 'Kreator' last night, some metal band. Genre music. The three bands we saw, sounded pretty much the same, all variations of Slayer, except that Slayer is better.
Even so, right away, the drumming is so superior with the bands I saw, that the guys I have to listen to ought to take drum lessons. In comparison, they are like children compared to real drummers.
If you don't have a good drummer in your band, there almost isn't even a point.
Anyway, it is nice and quiet now.
What sucks is often the band will rehearse during prime time, the time when people are home from work. Hard to make phone calls when loud, crappy music is going.
Anyway, I got to listen to a lot of Howard today, which really made me laugh with some great Sal and Richard Prank calls.
I got to listen to some Rodney Dangerfield, too. Love his stuff, it's so good. Everyone loved Rodney. His role in 'Natural Born Killers' was a stand-out. I just wanted to see that scene go on and on.
Anyway, the yoga continues.
Hard not to get down about nothing happening in my life. Things take a while on the web to happen. I am under the illusion that people actually watch my stuff, when in fact, they don't. I get hits, but mostly it is because of some video I made of someone's music, and people watch that, because they like the band.
To get people to watch my stuff, well, that ain't easy.
Got to think of something.
It's better not to care, which is how I usually operate, and just make stuff, but sometimes you do want a little give-back.
Something about the energy I put out, puts people off. Hard to know what is going on with me, I've tried to figure it out. A lot of it is just reaching out to people, and making a connection. I'm not too good at that, and I know you have to do that.
I wonder what will happen next.
I just want to lay down.
I am really enjoying the silence of this moment.
The Kreator show was alright. I couldn't wait to leave. All I do at concerts is just stand there. I like watching videos of a band. Just the same as going to a show for me, except that you can adjust the volume.
Just because a band is loud doesn't impress me, there has to be more than that.
Volume that loud can't be good for a person. It's not even about enjoying the music, it's so loud, you can't hear it.
One guy got so drunk or fucked up, he was collapsing to the ground, and two security guys lifted him out of there.
I had one drink, and that was it, all I needed.
Not much that thrilled me about the show. My friend likes that kind of music. I like it enough where we can go and experience it for fun, but I wouldn't go to one of these shows on my own.
All I want to do is read a book.
I just want to lay down, too. I've been doing stuff all day.

I don't know what I'm doing with this blog, does it show.

I don't care, I don't have the energy to care, it's just a blog.
For me, it's just a public record that will remain online. It shows that I was home doing something, instead of dicking around.
That's part of what all the online stuff is. They can keep track of you.

I seem to have gotten off the track of my life. I don't know where it will go now, that's kind of exciting.
I am a little disillusioned with the art world.

Gotta be a way to live somehow.