Saturday Afternoon

I might as well say I am an atheist flat out, not because I'm a fan of atheism, but it is more or less my 'default' setting, computer users should be able to understand that. Plus, I have to establish that I'm not part of any grand scheme to someday live in The Celestial Kingdom, which is the plan of all Mormons.
I think of it more like in 'Logan's Run' where a useful image is provided. The dancers are hanging from wires as they fly up, trying to reach the top, then, 'Kablam!'; each one dies. Haha, I think that is how it is. We just die. When it is our time to go, when our bodies stop working, life exits, and death enters.

Indigo children. Yeah, right. I was an X-Ray Gamma Ray Ultraviolet child, still am in some ways. I see things other than visible light.

I left my keys in my locker after class, and I returned from a shower to my locker, and it was, "Aw, Fuck...!" I thought I'd have to go downstairs in a towel to get someone to cut off my lock, but lucky for me, I found a maintenance man to help me in the locker room.

Some guys should really wear towels in the locker room. Really. It ain't pretty. No wonder why women like to have the lights turned down low, men are ugly. Most of them are, anyhow.

It was a good yoga class, nice and gentle. I feel cleared out, alive, and stretched out. Feels good.

The steam room is essential to clear out the breathing passages. Your brain can't live without enough oxygen, mine can't, anyways.

I'm just gonna sit in my studio all day.

121,712 hits on youtube now. I pretty much started from scratch a year ago. I didn't know what I was doing. I put my toes into the water, and went from there. I've done pretty good so far. I'm happy with how it's gone. I exceeded my own expectations. I didn't know what would happen. My point is that you never know until you try. It turned out to be easier than I thought. It just required a lot of diligence and patience. In the course of a year, I put up about 300 videos.

I'm a little bit more selective about what I put up now. I don't just put up anything. Sometimes it is a video that I think people will like, for example, like a music video, sometimes because it is what I think people need, like 'Genesis Chapter 1 by Robert Crumb.' Othertimes, I feel something I feel inside about a filmed piece, and I say, "Fuck it, I'm gonna put it up, and I don't care what people think."

I'm getting 200-300 hits a day on youtube, so I know people watch, and I know which ones they watch. Most people still don't leave comments of any kind, maybe my videos aren't worth commenting on, or maybe after they watch some of my videos, they have something to say, or they don't want to have their name in my comment section, or they don't want anything to do with me after they watch one of my videos, hahaha.

Anyway, it's a beautiful day.

I'm liking the blog. I have twenty years of writing that is laying around my studio, and that will remain unread, I can barely look at the stuff myself, it is too painful. Knowing that someone will someday read my blog comforts me. It's nice to be read, whether they like it or not is another matter. I'm just trying to be as honest as I can here, and I have nothing to lose by doing that. I've never been particularily good at writing fiction, though some of the things I write about may sound like fiction to other people, I'm not sure.

I haven't played any online games for a couple of days. I go in and out with that. Depends on the day. I usually like to play them when I feel like I've gotten some work done.

Tomorrow night is Magic The Gathering night. We'll see what happens then. It's usually a good time, just hanging out with people I like, that's usually the point of it all.

I've been watching more Carl Sagan videos. I like him. Sad he died so young, but he left an indelible mark on the world. I hope people listen to what he said. We only have one Earth. If we screw up this planet, guess what? There's no other place to go.

The problem with long-term space travel, or suspended animation like you see in Star Trek, would have to be muscle atrophy. Muscles don't work as good if you don't use them. So, years in space asleep? I would guess you would end up like a parapalegic, like people who are in comas for a long time.

I'm liking science more and more. It is easy to watch a chemistry or biology lecture from UC Berkelely on youtube. I don't have to understand it at first. I just absorb. Words and concepts I don't understand, I can always look up.

That's where I am right now, not much more to say, except that I care about my family, and hope they are doing well. Everybody needs money, that's the problem. I have to do something to help myself, before I can help anybody else. It's a real problem. Have to work on that. There's got to be something I can do. There is, and I'll find it.

Laterz,
David