KirkIndySoloSpock is dead.

I can't access my original youtube channel. Ooops, I linked it to my Google account, thinking it would be a good idea. It wasn't. I was doing good with two channels there. I blew it. I don't know if I'll ever be able to have access to it again. I blew it. Makes me sad. All that work down the drain, though people can still see the videos.
Maybe I can gain access to it again, eventually, just hard to figure out how to undo what I did. With security issues, I don't blame how it is set-up at all.
Maybe it is time to move on anyhow into the new.
It's no big deal, the channel went from nothing to 125,000 hits and counting. Over 300 videos. That's enough for one channel, I suppose. I can start something new, and start a new path.
I liked being kirkindysolospock, though. I'll miss him. Damn, I hate screwing up like that, so fucking frustrating.
As a result, I wrote a song today called, "Computer Frustration". Maybe I'll put it together. I think I can do it, shouldn't be that hard.

Damn, I have to make a living. What a bitch that is.

I have to seriously reconsider my life. It ain't working. Yes it is. No it isn't. Just need an income, that's all.

Minimum wage is a joke.

I have a college degree.

Looks like it is back to the ballpark for me, sucks. I don't want to do it. But I will, and I'll enjoy most of it.

I tried hard to make something happen in the last six months, but not much did.

Life is work, I like that saying. I got it from Father Guido Sarducci.

I was trying to hook up all my accounts, and web content, to build an identity online, and I can't even access my channel. Dang. I need a youtube expert, or become one myself. Takes time.

I'll just go forward with the new 'David Lovins 67' channel. It's what I want to do anyhow.

Maybe I'll look into MySpace some more, too. I got nothing to lose.

I'm lost, which reminds me, I haven't seen a single episode of 'Lost'. Looks like a good show, too.

I'm bummed that I can't access my channel. I was having fun there. Damn. Now I have to start all over.

Maybe that channel represented a section of my life, and it is just over. Over, damn you, over.

Shit.

I'm confused.

It's no big deal, I only had 18 subscribers. Those won't be hard to replace. I didn't care about half of them anyway, people who were trying to sell me stuff, usually crappy stuff.
They're trying to do the same thing I am, I suppose. Survive, and a little extra money never hurt.

I'm going to turn on EverQuest again, and get to painting. It's the best thing to be on for me to actually paint at all. Otherwise, I can't do it. I can't focus. Too many computer distractions.

And maybe in a day or two, Google will send me something where I can change the settings on the old account so I can get into it again. Takes time, I should exercise patience at all times.

Sigh.

Maybe I should do some cartoons.

I gotta do something.

I'm gonna do something.

I get lonely sometimes.

I sure did see a nice girl with a sticky out butt today. I actually see her a lot when I'm at the outdoor office. I would never dare talk to her, what would be the point? I don't care that much anyway, but she sure is nice looking. I just don't want to bother anybody. I'm lucky they let me into yoga class. I try to be polite there, and not stare.

Sigh.

Valentine's Day? There's a constructed holiday designed to sell crap, geez.

I should get into that action.

I should get into everything and every situation I can where people want to open up their wallets and give me money, who cares? Money makes the world go round, and you can't do shit without it.

Ok, I'm done now.