Saturday Afternoon in the Nexus Zone

'Computer Frustration' is a running theme. Always something. Makes me laugh at a certain point.
Takes a while to sort out what to do.
Going to the cafe with a simple clipboard and paper helps.
I write what is on my mind.
It is an unloading of what is at the forefront of my imagination. It is similar to putting things into the 'recycle bin'.

My brother and I enjoy making comparisons between the brain and the computer. Very handy.

I've got a lot to do today.

I've all I got. I got nothing but me, and not much of a safety net. If I fall, there is no one to catch me.

With prospects like those, I suppose the best idea is to not look down.

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It was a good night last night. It was fun hanging out with some friends at the bar. Nice to have friends. Beats being alone.

I have to figure out what I am going to do with my life. I have a lot of talent and abilities, just got to make them work for me.

I need a steady paycheck is what I'm talking about. That would be nice. I need a way to support my life systems and my art and video making activities.

Takes time, everything does.

I know more and more what I want to do now, and that is nice to have that clarity of mind.

Everything goes towards a single goal, I like that.

I like working on my new 'David Lovins 67' channel. It is what I want to sell. I couldn't do much with the 'kirkindysolospock' channel, though I wish I could have access to it. It is my 'youtuber' channel, the one I can pretty much do what I want with.

The 'David Lovins 67' channel will probably be part 'youtuber' and part 'director', a blurring of the boundaries.

There is no sense of just doing one thing. It's not as if I can get my youtube channel approved by adsense.
I wonder how much they pay for 20 million hits?
That would be nice to get a nice check in the mail, even better if it was a fat one.

I have to figure this shit out.

I'm liking typing on my blog better than my manual typewriter now. The words come fast and hard off of my mini-keyboard that is a USB plug and play. Love it.

Damn, EverQuest is out of sync again. Have to restart it.

I wonder how my brothers are doing? I haven't heard from them in a day or two. Damn. I miss them.

Not much chance of girls lately. They have a lot on their minds. Most girls have options and choices. That they would choose me, well, I'd be a lucky man.
I haven't given up yet.

I skipped yoga today. I wasn't feeling it. I didn't wake up early enough, and I needed some free time.

I like these David Roasted & Salted Sunflower Seeds Ranch Flavor. Eat. Spit. Be Happy.

Guess I'll drink some beer, smoke, paint, play games, and get things done. I need a lot of solitude and time for all of this.

Maybe I'll go out again tonight. Gotta be social, get out there, meet people, get things going on.
I need people to make films with. That is a lot of fun. I want to do more.

I keep thinking about my father. He had to go through all kinds of hoops and over hurdles just to get a film made.
I just turn on the video camera and shoot, upload it, and people can watch right away.
Fun, huh?

Maybe some day, I'll go through these blogs and edit them, and see what is going on with them.

I want to do some dialogues here, and work out all of my thinking.

I am not worried about readers, not a concern or priority.

Funny after I am dead, all this stuff might be here forever, you never know.

I am human the last time I checked.

Gonna end this blog, so I can work on some titles for my next video project.