What is Art?

     Hello.  I had a nice time at the coffee shop.  It was beautiful outside, with the sun coming out, but it was too cold to sit outside for long.  I sat out there anyways.  I like to watch the girls and women.  The sight of them makes me feel alive, and is very good for my art.  Each woman is like a painting, or a piece of art.  She represents all the colors, forms, shapes, nuances, and feelings of sensuality.  Maybe sensual experience.  When I see a woman, it is a lot of things I feel.  It isn't just sexual.  My skin, my eyes, my mind feels a change upon the sight of a woman.  Makes me happy, more or less.

     Other than that, I don't know what art is.  Not anymore.  I used to know, but I no longer know.

     A lot of the things I want to post on my facebook aren't even allowed, but that is where I am with my art.  So I just paint tin cans and bottles since I can not express what I want.  It is fun, but it isn't the same.
     Plus, the art business is just like show business, and I don't know how much that interests me to project my ego like that.  We'll see.  I just have no idea at this time.
     Taking a photograph of a woman doesn't always do it.  The light isn't always captured in the right way.  Often I will see with my own eyes the form of the woman, but it is not captured in the photograph.  It has something to do with my lack of skills as a photographer, and that my eyes see better than the camera, since I have two eyes to create the illusion of form.

      Words.  What are words?  Not sure.
      My mind switches from text to visuals all the time.
     At SFAI, they had us read so much, that I don't know if it visually helped me, but it inundated me with words, lots of words, lots of blocks of text.  Hard to know if I was studying to be a writer or a visual artist.  I guess they didn't want us to go out into the world looking stupid and saying stupid things.  I do a pretty good job of that, though.  I make lots of mistakes, where I don't think through things until experience teaches me how.

     Some people like words, some like pictures.  Some would rather watch a video or a movie.  I try to supply all forms.  I got my blog, my facebook, youtube,...I express all of my art forms with these vehicles.  It is fun, if nothing else.
 
     I like the logic of words, though.  There is a start, a middle, and an end, and you can always fix your words.
 
     I just got done playing 'Free Realms'.  I had major lag near the end.  It's Sunday, the day after Christmas.  I guess a lot of kids were on.
     I enjoyed myself.  I got some new Warrior equipment, which I am happy about.  Makes me feel good.  It's been a long time coming to get some good Warrior stuff.  I got a new axe, which helps.  A level 5 axe just doesn't do the job.
     I saw a girl I knew, but haven't seen for a long time.  She seems to like me.  We are friends.  There is not much to be had in video game relationships.  There isn't much in it for me at least.  Most of the game is better played alone.  I get more done that way.
     This girl has been a good friend.  I don't know what she wants, but she always shows up.  She has in the past seemed to show a little jealousy when I am around other women.  I would think this girl is too young for me in real life, so there is no point to pursue her.  Besides, I only know her through a video game.
     Lots of girls seek relationships in Free Realms, and it sometimes makes it hard to play the game, just like in real life.  But then they make it fun, when it isn't a pain in the ass to be distracted.
     It doesn't help that every girl in the game is really good-looking.
     The only things that differentiate one girl from another is word choice, clothes, and behavior.  Since I joke to myself that all women belong to a collective consciousness, well, uh....one is as good as another, but some are better than others.
     Free Realms supplies everything a woman needs in a relationship.  But since the guy wants sex, there is nothing in it for him.
     Friendship is another story, though.  That is real.  People who are friendly in real life, they are friendly in video games.
     I can be friendly sometimes better in games than in real life.  It depends on what I am doing at the moment.
  
     What is art?  Not sure today.

     I hope the art gods will be happy with me.