I just beat a kid in Card Assault on Clone Wars Adventures.  He wasn't too happy about it.  He put me on the ignore list, the little shit.
     Anyway, I am having a good time today. 
     I had a good day in the cafe, got a sale, drank coffee, and looked at some girls.  It is all I can ask for.
     Meanwhile, I have a couple of hours until I do my napkin art thing at the bar again.
     Also, I made some goddamn delicious chicken vegetable soup with rice.  Damn, is it good.

     I am looking forward to my nap, though.  I get sensory overload from the computer and everything going on, and it is nice on a daily basis to take some time off and zonk out for a bit so I can get a refresh.

     For some strange reason, I've been excited about life and what I am doing with my art.  It is a lot of fun, and I want more.

     I am glad I made it this far, and I want to live more than ever. 

     Anyway, wish me luck with my napkin art sales.  I finally got something I do that I believe in.

     I did do a commission for a lady on a napkin for her friend that said, "Fuck You, Bitch".  I did it in an endearing fashion.  Hey, I made six bucks off the deal, so I'm not complaining.  It paid for my coffee, bitch.

     It's all just a bunch of bullshit.

     Fuck.

     Anyway, I'm playing some more Card Assault on CWA.  It is fun.  I have a good time with it.  I'm addicted to this game because it is simple, quick, and easy.  In addition, you can win a booster pack if you take first place in the tournament.  I've won it five times, and I'm looking to do that some more.

     So, it was another day at the coffee shop.  I decided to paint again.  I tried to quit this week, going to the cafe with just some napkins to draw on, but then I got bored real quick.  When I have the whole painting set-up, I am somebody.  When I have nothing on my table, I am just some guy to everybody else.  In any case, they ignored the fuck out of me again today.  I hate that.  Not even a pleasant 'hello'.  These brainless mindfucks just don't give a shit about what I do.  They don't have fucking five bucks on them anyhow to buy one of my art pieces.  Yet, I keep going to this cafe because it is a cool place to hang out.

     There was a nice girl to look at with these up-high baggy shorts that you could almost look into, but then she left, and two rocker guys sat at the table, and gabbed for an hour and a half, which was really tedious for me.  All I wanted to do was listen to music.

     Anyway, I got my painting done, and now I am ready to try again tonight at the bar.

     Wednesdays are notoriously bad for me because of the 'poet gathering'.  They get in my way.  A whole table of them gather together a couple of times a week, and help to distract people away from my art just because they are there.  It is bothersome.

     Anyway, I will try again tonight.  I need money.  I hope somebody will cough up some cash.

     So, I lost in yet another card tournament.  I will keep trying to win, both in my games, and in real life.

     Some girl told me it is not about winning, but some guys have a beautiful wife, house, and cars, and I don't have squat.  I've been trying to make something of myself with my art for many years, and, it is a constant challenge when people in general don't give a fuck.  I will keep trying to win them over, and they will keep trying to resist me by ignoring me.  It is not doing them any good.  They are missing out on a lot of artwork that is going.  It isn't doing me any good, because I need their money.  Sheez, I wish these people would wake up.

     Well, I might as well post a random picture...

     This is a picture of my napkin art at the bar.  It is hard to imagine that people ignore this set-up, but they do.  A lot of people only look at it when they are walking by.  I think it is pretty hard to get a good look at art when you are in motion.  I've seen people do this in museums with great paintings.  They just walk by real fast.  I don't know how they expect to see anything.


    

     Fuck.
     I love starting blog entries like that.  It is fun.  And this blog is the only one I have where I can do that.  This is the one where I can let my hair down, so to speak.
     Yeah, I got pretty hammered last night.  I blacked out a couple of times for a second.  I smoke this nasty pipe tobacco and I drink too much.  It's all my own damn fault.  I wouldn't do it if it wasn't so much fun.  I like to drink and smoke.  With my job being at a bar, I've been getting fucked up a little too much.  That's what I gotta do to make some money.  I don't have anything else going for me in terms of work.  No one that I know will hire me for what I do.  Maybe someday that will change, but it doesn't seem like that will happen any time soon.  I've been making art for over twenty-five years now.  Trust me, no one is looking for me.

     Anyway, I'm just playing some Card Assault on Clone Wars Adventures.  I am addicted to that game.  It is a lot of fun.

     Yeah, I was drunk last night, and when I got home, I felt like going out and fucking some whores, but instead, I just got on the computer and behaved.  I didn't even jack off, haha.

     So, I've just been playing cards, ate some soup, and turned on Marvel Avengers Alliance on facebook.  I like that game, but have not played it in a while.

     Meanwhile, I was wondering why nobody was watching my newest videos.  I had them set to 'Private' instead of 'Public'.

     To be honest, I am still recovering from last night, and I need a nap.

     I was thinking of jacking it, but I don't like to do that until I get home from work.

     It is just one of those days today where I don't have much direction.

     Then, all I can think about is how to make more money, get my art out there, and what new content I will create.

     If I keep working hard, good things will happen.  I've always believed that.  At least, that is what they taught me.  Meanwhile some people barely have to lift a finger, and they make a hundred grand a year.  No one said the world was fair, but I would just like to have some more spending money so I can have a good time.

     Anyway, yeah, I need a nap.  It helps to reset my brain.

     I did see some of this 'Call of Cthulu' movie, made as if it was made in the late twenties as a silent film.  It looked like it was shot in video, so it didn't look exactly like film...it was too smooth.  But I liked what they were doing in this film.  Too bad the dvd kept skipping.

    

     Holy Shit!  19,750 views on this blog.  I had no idea until I just checked.  I never write on this blog anymore because I can't make money on it.  This blog has been deemed unworthy by advertisers, and yet, it is my most popular one!  It is just how it goes.  Figures, huh?
     You see, I know what people want.  It is the same thing I want.
     Sanitized crap nobody wants to read.
     The good, the bad, the ugly, some sex stuff, and lots of filthy words...that is what people want.

     Sorry that I haven't been writing entries on this blog lately, but, I am just one person, and I can't do anything about Corporate Control.  I want people to think, but they don't.