I love porn, it makes me happy

Anyway, I just got back from the coffee shop, working on my 'Three Little Pigs' story that I will make a video out of. I never know what will happen when I sit down and write and draw a story like that. I don't know what will bubble up. Whatever happens is usually pretty interesting to me, and I have a good time doing it. I really tried to restrain myself to make it into a rated PG thing, it isn't always easy for me nor is it my desire, because hey, I'm 42, and the Hollywood ratings system kind of bores me to tears. Except to supposedly protect the kids, I don't know what the point of the rating system is.
Anyway, I am sluffing yoga today, I don't feel like a vigorous hatha flow class today...ugh. I'm not a big fan of hatha flow anyhow. I suffer through it once in a while, and if there were not cute girls in the class, I would barely want to do it at all. I'd rather be in the coffee shop drawing or sitting at home playing video games.
I don't think anybody is reading this blog, and that is not very important to me at this point. All that matters is to keep doing it, and then I'll see what happens. I don't even know what I am doing yet.
Anyway, I heard of some survey they did, and they asked people what was the thing that made them the most happy, and a lot of people said, "Porn". Haha.

Anyhow, I have to find a job. That will be a challenge for me. I'd love to do something where I can use my talents, but that is unlikely. Most jobs just want to pigeon-hole you into one task, or a limited number of tasks, and you do that ad nauseum until you snap.

I like being an artist. I get to do whatever I want every day, and I do whatever I feel like doing that day. I get to work on a variety of skills, and I have fun. Trust me, it is a lot of work, though, but it is work I like doing, because it is for myself. The problem is getting paid for it, eeek. I'm going to have to work on that, or I am fucked, haha.

Well, all the odds are against me. I wouldn't bet on me. Yet, I have to keep trying to survive and live in this world. It ain't easy.