tight ropes

     I just got back from the cafe, and now I have to piss.  Coffee goes right through me. 
     I could use some beer right now, to be honest.
     Haha.
    
     Anyway, it was a goon fest today at the cafe.  We talked up a storm about Dungeons & Dragons, Warcraft, and Magic, and all that shit. 
     It is all so funny for grown men to be talking about all that stuff.
     However, we all used to be young, and that is what we all used to like to do, and, you know what?  We still like to do it.

     Meanwhile, I am still thinking about the blond, but that all doesn't matter.  She didn't seem to have any interest in me whatsoever, and even that doesn't matter.  She was just doing her own thing.
     We almost bumped into each other inside the cafe when I zipped around the corner, and she was going in from the other way.
     We scared each other.
     I just was lucky that she sat near me, so that was good enough.
     She probably saw that I was not a guy that was going to bother her. 
     Girls like that, where they can just sit in a cafe, and not get harassed by some guy.
     Sometimes, though, I miss opportunities, that is my problem.
     I'm going to have to be more keen about what actually goes on, instead of thinking that things are magically going to come to me.
     I am learning that you have to go after what you want in this world.
     On the other hand, some things fall right into your lap, nice and easy.
     I've had that happen, too.

     I'm going to make some coffee.

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     So, I will tell you how it's been at the cafe in the last week.  I go in there, get my coffee, turn on my laptop, and I primarily focus on my blogs, and of word generation.  Then I let it rip.  Sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesn't, but I am definitely in word mode when I am there.
     There are three guys I talk to there...Marco, Daniel, and James.  I don't talk to James as much.  Anyhow, that is our group.  It works.
     It is actually a nice place to stand, sip coffee, and smoke a fag.
     Anyway, the spoken dialogue fuels what I write.
     You can't write in a void.  There needs to be life around, otherwise it doesn't work.
     That is another reason why I like to write in the cafe...there are women around.  They make me feel alive with their particular energies.
     I don't want to be dead, not yet.  I want to live.

     Anyway, my coffee is brewing, and I've got a lot of time ahead of me to do what I want.
     I have some Magic cards to tape up, some Babylon 5 to watch, Clone Wars Adventures awaits, among other things.

     It is nice to be alone, after hours in a public place.  It was getting hard to think, and the cold was starting to get to me.
     I can't write when I have to piss, or when it is cold.

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     The idea with this blog being set up for an 18 and over audience, well, I wanted to have a window for myself that I could jump through when ever I needed it.
     Whenever I come across a science fiction babe in the buff, I can always put it here.  There is no other place I have where I can post stuff like that.
     I don't know what I would have to do to have a porn website.  Plus, I don't really make porn.  I make erotic drawings from time to time, and I need a place to post them.  I haven't been too impressed with what is out there.
     I can't get too much into DeviantArt...I mean, who cares?  I would rather just do my blog, the way I want, and build it all from scratch.  Why should I give a fuck about anything else, except what I do?  That of course, raises the question of 'Why should anyone else give a fuck about what I do here on this blog?"
     Well, my answer is, you might never know when I could post a picture of '7 of 9' and write about her.  You just never know.
     Or I could find a nudie shot of Delann from Babylon 5.  I would like to see her naked in full make-up, lol.  Of course, she is getting older now, we all are, every day.
     Man, there are so many things to talk about.  There are some sex things I want to mention, about older women with young men.  Maybe later I will address that.  I just think it is nice that women can have the power in certain situations.
     I'm the kind of person that thinks that sex once in a while is pretty good for you, and if you aren't fucking once in a while, then something is wrong.
     Everyone needs to get some action once in a while, or else you are walking towards the grave.
     There is one thing I've learned in this life, and that is, "Get it while you can, and get it while it is hot."
     Once it is not available, well, good luck.
     Also, if you don't use it, you lose it.

     There have been times when I wasn't getting laid, and I wasn't masturbating, so then I had to check once in a while that everything still worked, haha.

     Everything still works on me, and I still have the virility of an 18 year old, pretty much.

     Anyhow, who wants to hear about all that shit?  I don't know.  Everybody?

     When it all boils down, pretty just want the good stuff.

     Humans are a race of selfish bastards, so have a laugh, and don't even bother to get out of bed in the morning unless you are ready to live, motherfucker.

     That's another thing, too.  That goddamn chat box on 'Clone Wars Adventures' sucks ass.  It doesn't work, fucking thing.  I wish they would fucking fix that thing.  I get so frustrated that then I have to come here and swear my ass off.

     There is another thing, too, about being dirty or clean on the web.  Well, I use my profanity as a weapon against conservatism, the brain-melting nuclear bomb of this country.  If you listen to their shit for too long, half your brain will fall asleep. 
     To think that there are people who want to push their conservative beliefs onto everybody?  They are insane, because, what is it all for?  It's about Control.  Fuck that.

     I am a person who wants everybody to be free, including myself.  I wouldn't describe myself as a liberal, I'm just in the middle of everything, suspended, walking lots of tight-ropes.

     I am a high-wire act, or at least some kind of circus act.  I haven't figured it all out yet.

     All I know is I need some more coffee.